Does everything require an audience?
Even my fears and desires and truest feelings are validated only by expressing them and having someone listen. Somehow it simultaneously feels less real and all too suffocating if I am the only one feeling or thinking something. By audience I don’t mean a hall full of people but even just one. As long as they understand things in the way you want them to. As long as the thought is as heavy in their heads as it was in your own. Although I am fortunate to have friends who listen to me ramble for days, it doesn’t bring me the satisfaction. Perhaps the anonymity, the fantasy that this may be read by someone who can truly feel what I feel or more is what makes the difference . I dont know.
It doesn’t matter if only one person or even nobody reads this because even this is enough. The possibility.
That’s why I will start this again. So hello.